Cherishing the Little Moments- Navigating the Delicate Balance of Motherhood
I wanted to share an excerpt I wrote back in February 2022, during a particularly vulnerable moment in my journey as a mama to my three-month-old son. I’m a little nervous to share about this day and my feelings, but I go back to what I wrote frequently and feel comforted. I hope that by sharing I can help other moms feel less alone in similar situations.
“Today I didn’t feel like I got as much devoted time with Lane. After his early morning feeding, I did a CorePower class. Later, my dad came to visit, and I had to study for a STATS final. It was nice that my husband picked up the slack, so I could get things done.
By the time I put Lane to bed that night, I felt like I didn’t get enough that day. Enough snuggles or enough quality time.
He was tired and would have fallen right asleep, but I rocked him to sleep anyway. Not because he needed it, but because I needed it.
In an odd occurrence, while rocking him, Lane woke up and just started smiling and “talking” to me - making his funny coo sounds.
It’s like he knew that’s what I needed. I love that boy so much, but it’s the best feeling knowing how much he loves me back.
I never want to forget little moments like this one. Just the two of us. Talking, singing or laughing together. He will always be my baby. And I always want to be his favorite person.
As my maternity leave comes to an end, I want to remember that it’s the little moments that matter and I need to make the most of the time we do have together. I will always be there for him in whatever he needs and hopefully he will continue to know what I need too.”